New Blog....for real

Yes,I had't been updating this blog for a long long time...

This is because I have another blog where all my friends can access and comment to...

http://www.neoplastic-oncogene.blogspot.com

hope you guys can show your support there.. for i had decided to stay with that blog for good...

However i will still update this baby once in a while...

Chowz!

1 year 7 months ago Log a comment

My boyfriend's back!

Yay! Finally..After a long long absence.. HE IS BACK.. I so so so so miss him...kaka~

Anyways..As usual, I am in the coldness of my UNI trying to make my life "busier" by studying. As you can see..I love busy life..But..UNI busy life is different. It makes you crazy. I wouldnt want to focus it to..IMU LIFE..Now that's terrible. It's like...adding flammables into fire..It's like....

ARGH!!

No..I am no pirates. I hope I am.. Free sailing everywhere I go. But here..It's more like a little bird caught in it's cage...

Aix..

There ain't no free world!

But there ain't mountain high enough too!

CHARGE!

n_n

1 year 8 months ago Log a comment

Happiness prevails....

Peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....ples..

Yes, gone and back again. I have nothing really to blog about. Just some random toughts in my head. Anyway, yea, I feel happier now. Much more carefree..much more myself. I know it is the examination period. But in this period too, is when i meet new people and be myself, looking at a different perspective of things.

I'm breaking free!! Yippie!!!

Examination in a few more days.. I am feeling scared..BUT.. I am so gonna see my dear tomorrow!!! Yay... He just finished his exams and I AM FINALLY GONNA SEE HIM.. But not too long.. coz my frined will be at home.. As much as I want him to stay on I can't..Darn, where the heck is my freedom..!It is just wrong timing at the wrong time...What to do..

Neway, just dropping by..

n_n

1 year 8 months ago Log a comment

Crouching Iris..Hidden....Mouse??

Yes, I am still feeling very grumpy and frustrated... But yet, I am terrified and scared. A part of mewants the darn exam to be gone but yet the terrified part of me dreads the result day. Will I do fine? I do not know. However, I am happy that this time, It is not anything last minute. I hope..HOPE that it wouldnt be another STPM...Well, is STPM that bad you might wonder.. But let me tell you this.. It is one exam that i wouldnt want to go through again.. Not anymore. That's why how badly I did, I wouldnt want to re-take although, I want to...

I wonder why at university level, everything is still so exam base. I enter university with the hope that I wouldnt want to go through the same s*** again. But sadly, it is the same...-_-lll... *sighs* forget about it...

Alot of things had happened for the past few days. My dear and I just reached our 3 years and a month mark 2 days ago. On that very day, we had a bad tiff.. But everything is fine. I miss him so much.. You know..now I understand the pain of loving someone so much that when whatever he say or does mean somthing to you. I do not know when he will be reading this post of mine..Dear, I love you....

Enough for mushy stuff, sorry for keeping this blog so personal..*wtf..it is personal*.. Anyways...Back to war...

Waiting for you...

n_n

1 year 8 months ago Log a comment

Gone..Going....Gone...But I'm not Jack Jo...

Yea, Gone...Going....But not yet gone...That's what i hope. 1 week in counting.. And this tiny winy thing called fear manage to find it's way to my circulatory system *Hope I am not sounding too scientific..Too much of Human Biology..what to do"..

In a way, I do not know who reads my blog anyway. No more comments and anything. Perhaps my life is not interesting. But I understand.. I have to admit that I am not an interesting person to start with. But this blog is not for anyone to read... It's for me to pen down my mind and toughts. So to me..I think it's ok.. It's not about the hits my blog is trying to achieve... It's more to typing down all my frustrations, happiness, sadness, stressfullness...everything. My blog is my new best friend. One that I can trust.. One that I can tell anything to without being scolded and yank aside. It accepts whatever decision I make.. whatever feeling i felt and whatever random toughts I am thinking. No matter how crappy am I..it is there to lsiten out to me...Being there for me... Lastly...Thanks Blog.

Nextly of course, I havent touch on the American Election. I would take this chance to congrats America to once again challenge the unimmaginable. In fact, this is what democracy is all about. It should be practiced in every democratic country without any sense of biasness of whatsoever. Sometimes...being neutral is the way to go. Not too heavy on the hydroxonium or hydroxide ions. But again, not everyone thinks that way,,,*sadly* That is the problem with people nowadays. All they want is dominating each other. Perhaps animal instincts are taking over human kind slowly. *Sad to say*

Enough of random picking...Back to Human Biology..

n_n
1 year 8 months ago 1 comment

I'm not moving

It is the 6th Day into by battle * Rene with the scrawny little body pick up the blade aka "sword for tiny people" and swing it all over the place*...

*blink blink*

Yea..Like I say, It has been 6 day ever since I started this battle for the 1 1/2 month Golden freedom..I don't seemed to be moving..ANYWHERE...Not without LaiLai by my side... I know I so love the module (Human Biology) but.....LaiLai...Where art thou!

*Background: The man who can;t be moved by The Script*

I'm not Mooooooooving......I'm Not MOOOOOOOOOVVVIIINNNNNGGGGGGG~...

Crazy cuckooo head me...

I am feeling darn random today...I am feeling entropy! *Question mark?? Read up your chemistry books* * Chai wen sniggers*

Now..back to the battle...*Picking the sword for tiny people and go.....ROOOAAARRRR"

*Background: LOTR theme song*

May I win the fight...

Amen....

n_n

1 year 8 months ago Log a comment

Mooo....Moooseee....Musings~

Today is the 5th day into my battle with exam stress.. I would not say that I am winning the battle...(which i think I would only find out when the exam results are release). Yes, my confidence died out on the way... And now, stressfulness had take over my life. People do not understand.

I told my parents..All, they say was.."why so stress...You now stress next time how??? If you want to be like that i suggest you to give up"...

I told my boyfriend...All he say was," Why you a little bit a little bit then stress already!"...

I mean... How can I not be stresss???! I am human too.............................I really don't know what to do sometimes..Do not know who to turn to.. Do not know how to react. All I can do do now is to keep everything to myself....

EXAMS ARE KILLING ME...

I really do not know if I can make it to where I want to be...

Make it to the world of cancer and cells...

And research~~...

n_n
1 year 8 months ago Log a comment

Tiring and all that~~~~~~

Darn, I am mentally drained.. It is not something significant for you guys always catch me saying that. But yes, I AM MENTALLY drained.... No doubt I had finished studying my General Chemistry but I still do not feel confident enough. Confidence is one thing and Stress is another thing... I guess I can sail through this Semester. But I really hope to get that First Class Hons at the end of my course. I hope i hope I hope... I found out one thing when I came into IMU... Looks is your life in IMU.. Popularity is EVERYTHING in IMU. People have more confidence hanging out with people who are good looking..pretty..AND POPULAR. I mean take a look around... YEs, some of them might look INNOCENT..but the fact is... NO. They're devil's will show when they are around a bunch of people. I am sick and tired of this kind of life. From the past, I was always known as " someone's friend" Like..."Hey, you are XXXXX friend right? Where is he/she now ah?" OR " Hey Iris, Where is XXXXXXXXXX now ah?" I am like HELLO IF YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME STOP MENTIONING MY FRIEND WOULD YOU. I prefer people knowing me as an individual rather than someone who is related to someone else....It sort of spoils my mood and self esteem.. I somehow do not know how to change this. Maybe it's just fate. OR MAYBE I AM JUST NOT GOOD LOOKING ENOUGH!!! ENOUGH??? WAIT... I AM NOT GOOD LOOKING~ Heck...so whhatttt.....ugly duckling will be a swan someday... SOMEDAY.... Let's wait and see shall we... n_n
1 year 8 months ago Log a comment

In UNI and bored

Here I am...Trying to study..But to no avail...I keep telling myself that i can do it... But However, I do not know if I am just being naive or what.

Sighs~

1 year 8 months ago Log a comment

All pumped up~

1 year 9 months ago Log a comment